I'm depressed.. I haven't heard from my best bud. I don't even know if he knows that we're staying here in the US for good.. I think sila Raina told him but I wanted it to come from me.. You know? Ohwel.

Hey Job! I miss you. How was your play? I know I promised to watch it.. I hope it was all good! I wanted to hear you sing and stuff! SAYANG. Boo.

I hope to hear from you soon!! Holler when you see this ayt? Love you pare!

Can you name 21 people you can think
of right off the top of your head? Dont read the
questions underneath until you write the names of
all 21 people.

Don't change the names you've written once you
start answering the questions. Ready, Start!

1. Meg
2. Bern
3. Cas
4. Jiv
5. Raina
6. Budda
7. Isa
8. Job
9. Carlos
10. Mikey
11. Miggy
12. Diego
13. Tina
14. Pata
15. Eunice
16. Ice
17. Tet
18. Chino
19. Miguel
20. Luigi
21. Anela

THE QUESTIONS:
1. How did you meet 14?
- School

2. What would you do if you never met 6?
- I wouldn't have a super vain, 6-foot friend

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
- Haha! Brokeback? EWW.

4. Did you ever like 5?
- Like?? I love number 5!

5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
- Jiv and Diego?? Haha. Don't think so

6. Describe 8:
- Bestest bud in the whole world!!

7. Do you think 13 is attractive?
- Of course!

8. Tell me something about 17:
- Best person to vent to

9. Do you know any of 4's family members?
- YES. Tito Boy, Tita Yolly, Nia and Cheska :D

10. What's 21's favorite color?
- I think blue

11. What would you do if 18 just confessed s/he
liked you?
- Haha. I wish

12. what language does 20 speak?
- English and Filipino..

13. Who is 9 going out with?
- None that I know of. Hmmm.

14. What grade is 16 in?
- 2nd year high school

15. When's the last time you talked to 13?
- I chatted with her this morning for like 5 mins

16. What is 2's favorite band?
- Bern's weird eh.. Different bands for different moods

17. Would you ever date 7?
- We always date!! She's my kabarkada!

18. Would you ever date 12?
- Err. No? Haha!

19. Is 15 single?
- Yes! Not unless she got a boyfriend over the summer

20. What is 19's last name?
- I forgot!! I just know him as Miguel BANGAG! Haha!

21. Would you ever want to be in a serious
relationship with 11?
- Miggy? Haha! I dunno.. He's too goofy

22. What school does 3 go to?
- UP Los Banos for college!!

23. Where does 15 live?
- Mandaluyong

24. What's your favorite thing about 10?
- Super goofy like his brokeback-mate, Miggy

25. Have you seen number 1 naked?
- Meg? Nope! Haha!

I feel like replying to the people who posted tags on my board.

Mikey: Hey!! Yup! Remember you're goofy!! Haha! Baduy!

Raina: I looooove you too!! I know you know that.

Victoria: Hi, yeah he's cool.

Jio: Tapos na orsem!! Were we supposed to be blockmates? Haha! How was it??

Meg: Hey love! I miss you!! Keep reading my blog.. It's like I'm making kwento to you in person! Haha!

Lialb: Lai!! I miss you!! Did you shut down your blog? Love you.

Happy Meal: Hey Tina!! I don't have to take the SATs!! I'm going to a community college anyway. Love you babe!

Haha! That's it! Keep tagging, guys!

I was chatting with a really good friend last night.. She wants to remain anonymous. Anyway, we were talking about how can realize that she likes or has strong feelings for someone at the wrong time.. Especially when it's too late.. It's just like denying you like someone because you think that eventually, the feelings will go away but then the thoughts just keep hunting you.. Then when the time comes and you're ready to tell yourself (and the whole world) that you like this person, it might have been too late.

Oh crap. I hate the feeling.. Sheeeeht.

Here are bits and pieces of our conversation:

Marj: nagulat nga ako pagonline ko yan status mo
Marj: sino naman pinaparinggan mo?
friend: ah wala
friend: wahahahhaa
friend: im just bitter
friend: hehe
friend: look at my stat
STATUS: "Some ask "why" to things that happened. I ask "why" to things that didn't." 

Marj: kanino ka bitter?
Marj: may boy ka na ba??
Marj: SHEHT KWENTO
friend: wala akong boy marj
friend: not mine
friend: hahahahahaha!
friend: BITTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Marj: NOT YOURS??
Marj: who is this not-yours guy?
friend: nope obviously not
friend: haaayy
friend: marj
friend: before i tell you
friend: alam mo naman ma pride ako diba?
Marj: haha yeah...
friend: parang i try to cover up my feelings p
friend: kasi feeling ko minsan walang kwenta at parang nakakahiya
friend: eh then when it finally hits u and u finally admit to urself na shit gusto ko to.. its too late na
friend: at parang alam mo rin naman na it can't happen.

friend: the thing is ive known him for like forever
friend: hahahaha
friend: actually parang a decade na
friend: alam mo yung mga tao nasa tabi tabi lang
friend: i didnt expect to like him man.
friend: yikes

Marj: so am i right with my second guess?
friend: yeah
friend: marj say something
Marj: it's pretty hard, i know..
friend: it is
Marj: but there's really nothing you can do.
friend: exactly
friend: nothing.

Marj: it's just the same feeling of denying something tapos bigla na lang you realize nga that it's true.. gets?
friend: shit
friend: man marj sana we realized these feelings before pa
friend: why did we have to deny it pa
friend: something couldve happened before
Marj: i know...
Marj: but the thing is, *toot* realized it late narin.. he had a girlfriend na so he couldn't make a move..
friend: man...
friend: if its too late..why realize it pa diba?
friend: but we cant deny it forever
Marj: yeah.. it's true..
friend: its gonna come out
Marj: we just have to live with it..
friend: yeah shit
Marj: if it's for us naman talaga, there will be a way for us to get the feelings back at the right time..
friend: true
friend: new beginning for us marj
friend: pero i cant accept as of now what people say...parang college naman eh..new boys...
friend: siyempre as of now ur still hanging on to the feeling diba?
Marj: yeah..

friend: i feel so pathetic marj! parang feeling ko ang babaw ko! parang i'm looking for other reasons why i like him but someone said minsan wala talaga reasons eh.
friend: u just feel it.
friend: damn why then?!
Marj: maybe you just like him as a whole so everything follows.. you find him cute with ANYTHING he wears, his jokes are ALWAYS funny, etc. friend: TRUE.
friend: OH MAN. THANKS
friend: just like him as a whole so everything follows..
friend: NICE.
friend: thanks
Marj: haha
Marj: no problem

To my dear friend, things will go as planned.. You just have to deal with this like you normally would. Like before, pretend you already make him beso and stuff, you should still do that coz the more that you avoid him, baka he'll realize that something is up.. Okay? Just chill about it! It's normal.. We all love you! Cheer up!

The first player of this game starts with the "6 weird things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, as well as state this rule clearly.. in the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names...

1. I have this thing for the collar of shirts.

I actually got this habit from my dad.. He likes to play with the sleeves of shirts. He uses his thumb and fore finger to like feel the fabric or something.. In my case, I do that with the collar of shirts. Preferably, those made out of cotton.
 
2. I am super OC with my school stuff but I don't really care with my stuff at home. 

I don't know why.. Maybe coz I know Yaya Emma is there to pick up after me at home..? Haha. Whoops. Bad habit indeed.

3. I like reading books that are based on the lives of people who are at least, 10 years older than me.

I just find the other books very boring.. Oh yeah, and the book cannot be about Science or history or I will die.

4. I always forget to pray before I drive.

I know, it's really bad.. And I always remember to pray right when I'm like on the way back na or after I parked the car. Yikes.

5. I cannot finish a whole movie without falling asleep.. Even for a millesecond.

I know it's stupid.. But you know that feeling when you've fallen asleep really long then you suddenly realize it was just a second or something? That happens to me all the time!

6. I cannot write the same neat way I do on my school notebooks on any other notebook or project.

I write differently on different kinds of papers and for different kinds of reasons. Weird, I know. Or maybe I just think my writing is different, but really it isn't.

I know. I'm weird. HAHA.

I tag: Sarah, Lia, Aziel, Tito Raymond (put in your multiply journal), Mady, Angel

Wow!! I'm so overwhelmed right now..

I FINALLY GOT TO TALK TO MY DEAR DEAR FRIENDS!!

First was Raina.. Our conversation went like this:
Raina: hello?
Marj: hello!!
Raina: who's this?
Marj: Marj
Raina: Marj?
Marj: Marj!
Raina: MMMMMMMMAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRJJJJJJJJJJJ!!!!!!!

Then she started shouting "ohmygosh!! how are you? blahblahblah.." Laughtrip mehn! And to think she was in greenbelt!! Haha! And then she told me she's going to New York in October so I told her to tell her dad that I'll take care of lodging and food basta she comes here to LA. Then he said SURE. Yahoo!! I can't wait to see you Rainani!

Next person I called was Jiv.. When I first tried to call, I thought a guy answered coz the voice was low so I dropped the call. Then I figured na baka she just woke up so I tried again.. Here's our conversation:

Jiv: Hello?
Marj: Jiv!
Jiv: Sino to?
Marj: Marj
Jiv: Marj??
Marj: Kamusta??
Jiv: Maaaaarj... *her i'm-about-to-cry-voice*
Marj: Uy don't cry!
Jiv: Bakit ka naman kasi tumawag na eh hindi pa nga ako nakakareply sa email mo tapos di pako tapos umiyak!! *starts to kind of cry*
Marj: Uyy.. Don't cry! Baka maiyak din ako!
Jiv: Kasi naman Marj eh... Uwi ka na.. Wala nako kasabay pag pauwi..
Marj: Di pa pwede eh.. Pero gusto ko na umuwi..

Then we talked pa for a while lang then I found out that she was going to be with the kada in La Salle that afternoon so I told her I'd call her around that time.

Bern, Jiv, Cas and Tina were together at Ubreak when I called. It was so funny coz when Jiv answered, she just said "Hi Marj" then passed the phone then Bern said: "Maaaarj!" then passed the phone then Tina didn't even get to say hi so Cas got the phone and said "Marj, they're all crying kasi..." So I was panicking coz I wouldn't be able to talk when I start to cry so I kept shouting: "Hoy don't cry! You're in a public place!!" Haha. Then we all just started making kwento after a few moments of silence... Comfortable silence.

Then I called Meg coz she couldn't go to La Salle coz she didn't have transpo.. And same reaction as Raina, she was so surprised!! I loved it!! Haha! Then we made chikka also about stuff. Heehee.

Then last but not the least, I called Pata. This girl is simply THE funniest. Kala nanaman niya someone was pranking her to be me. Haha! Haaay Pata! PARANOID MO! We talked for a good 30 mins also..

Haaaay.. It's good to hear familiar voices again. And now I know a lot of chismis again. YAY! Haha! I love love love love love you guys!! Will try to call you all again soon!

Have you ever met that "perfect" couple? The type that still hold hands even if they're almost married for 30 years. The ones who'd call each other "babe" or "honey" ALL the time instead of their names. Those who'd kiss each other every chance they get, tease the other when the other's upset, fight for 5 seconds and then kiss and make up right away..?

I have THE perfect example.. My Ninang and Tito Romy.

I think they're the most perfect (if there's such a term) couple on earth. Even their love story is cute.

I dunno.. I'm just feeling all good inside. Got to talk to Carlos and Tina today.. Oh so fun.

I am homesick. But what's new? I'm probably going to feel like this till I get to go back to the Philippines in like, 6 years?? Paaaaaaak. I just read Tina's entry and it made me miss everyone and everything more.

I was just texting with Carlos last Friday. I was so homesick. Maybe coz I was watching TFC also. I dunno.. It made me appreciate ABSCBN more. All those shows that remind you of home. Ack. I miss the Philippines mehn.

I miss my Yaya Emma and our cook, Tita. I miss her cooking. I miss my house, my room, my bed, my computer, my bathroom and our walk-in closet. Sheeeeht.

I miss all the things that seemed familiar to me. I miss going into a mall and know exactly where to go.. Where to meet certain people, where to get picked up (SBC in Rockwell na 'to. haha). I miss familiarity... Coz I've always been afraid of big changes. Being in a new place, going to a new school, getting used to different things (they use mph instead of kph, gallons instead of liters, etc.). I'm starting to regret not taking the chance to go home alone and be with all the familiar things. Haaay.

But I know someday, things will work out well. I just hope I get super busy soon. Even though I know that school will start in September pa. Sheeeht. 2 and a half months.

We'll work this out, beb. We both know it.

This made my morning! See for yourself..

Marj: hey gec! how are you?
gec chia: im good...how come ur still up?
Marj: oh.. i'm in the US na with my family..
Marj: we're staying here for now
gec chia: really?since when?
gec chia: i didnt know that....
Marj: since april.. we were only supposed to stay here for vacation but then my dad said we'll stay here na lang since he works here na..
gec chia: oh really?so what state are you in?
Marj: yeah, i messaged you before eh to tell you but then you went offline.  haha
Marj: we're in LA
Marj: come here!! visit us!
gec chia: oh so your whole family is there now?
gec chia: so if i visit LA i have a place to stay?
Marj: yeah  whole family!
Marj: YES
Marj: we'll give you free lodging and food.. just like our other friends.
gec chia: how many are you again?
Marj: how many? you mean my siblings?
gec chia: hahaha...so you'll also show me around?
gec chia: yup
Marj: okay! madel says yes also  tour pa!
gec chia: i'm planning to go to the states though...but am nt yet sure
Marj: i have 3 sisters.. so my parents have 4 girlssss
Marj: for vacation? when?
gec chia: have no idea maybe july or august
Marj: of this year?
gec chia: i just know you and madel
gec chia: yup this year
gec chia: so you havnt studied there yet?
gec chia: i dnt think your parents will allow me to stay there though
Marj: GO NA!!  remember: FREE LODGING AND FOOD
Marj: i'm gonna study college here  dapat ateneo in the philippines eh but since we moved here, dito na lang
gec chia: hahahaha.....what company is your dad working for if you dnt mind my asking?
Marj: they will  haha!
Marj: singtronics
gec chia: but did you finish 4th yr here?
Marj: yup! i graduated last march
gec chia: you miss the philippines huh...
gec chia: how abt ur siblings?
gec chia: whos the other 2?
gec chia: brb
Marj: yup.. I SUPER MISS THE PHILIPPINES
Marj: my siblings were sad also that we didn't even get to say goodbye properly to our friends and other relatives.. but then, we'll move on soon. our parents made the decision eh
Marj: the other two? you met them narin.. mabel and mian. my youngest sister, mian, had this super big crush on you. she was 9 then. haha!
gec chia: am back
Marj: haha. isn't it like 2 in the morning there? why are you still up?
Marj: oh hey! if you'll be here early august, like first week, you can go to my 18th birthdya party
Marj: *birthday
gec chia: how old is she now?
Marj: mian? she's 12.. haha
gec chia: party?so you have lots of friends there already?
Marj: no.. mostly family.
gec chia: so school hasnt started yet ryt?
Marj: i have A LOT of relatives here.. haha
gec chia: so you have lots of relatives there?
Marj: nope.. september pa school eh.
gec chia: so where you planning to go?
Marj: that's if i get to enroll by next week for fall semester
gec chia: are there problems?
Marj: community college pa lang.. in college of the canyons.
gec chia: ok...ill let you know if i push through with my plan...hehehe
Marj: coz i already gave my transcript and papers to ateneo, i was enrolled na there eh.. tapos we moved here, so they had to get my papers and stuff from ateneo pa. so it took a long time for my tito to send it here..
Marj: YAY!
Marj: come end of july, start of august.. you'll be my guest of honor kasi from the philippines
Marj: oh hey, my friend's asking if you're married na daw.. if you don't her asking.
gec chia: hahaha.....ill think abt it coz am also planning to go to china for vacation
gec chia: is she from there too?will i be chatting at this time if im married?
Marj: come here first sabi ni madel
Marj: haha. that's true
gec chia: actually....am single.....
gec chia:
Marj: awww. i'm sorry
gec chia: is your friend from there?
Marj: no.. from canada  same time lang so we're chatting.. haha!
gec chia: its ok.....its been awhile....so am kinda ok na
gec chia: shes from the phil too?
Marj: yeah, she moved to canada last year
gec chia: so what do you do there everyday?shop?
Marj: no naman.. haha!
gec chia: so what?
Marj: when we first got here, yeah, we super shopped like every week!
gec chia: hahaha.....thats what i do when im there
Marj: now, we're kinda settling in.. madel and i take turns babysitting my cousin and sisters.  we get paid for it!
gec chia: thats good then....so you dont go out much?
gec chia: is it 230 pm there?
Marj: we go to the mall a lot if that's what you're asking.
gec chia: oh k
Marj: pero, clubbing and stuff, di pa pwede.. dapat 18 to go clubbing and 21 to drink
Marj: nope, it's 1121 am.. haha!
gec chia: yeah i know...i meant malls....
gec chia: really...so its only 9 hrs diff
Marj: but when you go here, and i'm 18 na, we can all go clubbing
Marj: my cousins are all excited to take me clubbing here! coz i used to take them clubbing there.. haha!
Marj: yeah, from here, plus 3 hours lang, philippine time na
gec chia: hahaha....alryt
gec chia: im on vacation now thats why im still up
Marj: it's 230pm in the east coast.. we're in the west coast eh
Marj: vacation? where are you now then?
gec chia: manila...but the pbl season just finished and we won the championship...so there
gec chia: dnt know abt my future plans though
Marj: OHMYGOSH!!!
Marj: congratulations!!!!  
Marj: wala kasing pbl dito sa tfc eh.. so we have no updates!
Marj: *paaaaaarty*
Marj: that's why pala you're vacation-ing! haha!
gec chia: yupyup...am actually going home to the province on fri
Marj: where's your province?
gec chia: zamboanga....
gec chia: hey gtg....or brb in 30...
Marj: okay! i'll be here
Marj: just message me when you're back.. unless you fall asleep

GEC! Come here na! Vacaaaaaaation! Haha!

My kuya-cousin, Jay, is leaving for San Antonio, Texas tomorrow. He's moving there with his fiance, Ate Connie, coz his company offered him a job there. He couldn't resist. Too much benefits.. To live in San Antonio is also cheaper than living here in LA. They can actually get a house already after a few months and Ate Connie doesn't even have to work.

Crazy adjustment though.. They have no family nor friends over there and it is freakin 1800 miles away.. 20 hours of driving.  And a plane ticket going there is probably around a hundred fifty-up each. Crazy, crazy.

 They're driving to San Antonio at 9am tomorrow so they can get there before the 5pm deadline of their new apartment. Their new place is cool.. And cheap.

Bright side though, we've got a nother place to visit. We'll probably plan to go there next summer. Oh yeah, they only got engaged 2 weeks ago, the Saturday right after they found out Kuya was moving to Texas. Definitely too much for 2 days. Yikes.

I'll miss you, you monkey! We shall webcam all day soon. Haha

There is just too much going on over here.. Our only kuya moving to San Antonio, Texas, Ate Jessie moving back in to her parents' house on the same day kuya left then she moves back to her boyfriend's house just 4 days after and my parents are not in good terms.. Most of the time, drama brought by my dad and her sister. 

OH MY GAWD!

Why oh why???

I know I've said oh-so many times.. But I'm so *HOLYMOLLY* homesick. Cried 2 straight nights over the weekend. I miss everyone back home!!! WHAH.